when I feel at ease, it makes me anxious
for instance, now, I put “now” outside of my future
and forget about it, at least,
that’s what I thought in the past, though I’m doing the same thing again “now”.
I’m afraid that something warm will cool, so I don’t touch it.
If I never get anything then nothing ever need be lost.
Are you ready yet, the past.
Not yet, the present.
Where is a place I can hide, when I’m always at the center of the world?
I’m found quickly and made the seeker in a game of hide and seek where I’m always the one seeking.
I wish I hadn’t come to see you, I wish I hadn’t said anything.
I fear that which glows because it tends to illuminate things, so I keep my distance.
If I don’t look, I won’t be seen
I didn’t cry in the past.
I feel the tears coming on now.
When things seem at their worst, I feel relaxed.
For instance, “now,” I use “now” as an umbrella
as I make my way to the end of the future.
Running away from the past
caught now in the present
I’m good at hiding, because I’m also the one seeking.
I found me again, and I’m the seeker again, always playing hide & seek with my self.
The part hiding calls out “you ready yet?” How many times does that make it now.
The part seeking, follows the pattern, “not yet!”
“Hey listen up,” “There’s only two choices.” “And there’s a time limit”
“I know that.”
I want to suck in my gut, and without fear, scream it out.
I call out, “on the count of three” in order to stop the future that found me,
the person afraid of you who glows with warmth.
“are you ready yet?” says the past
“I am.” says the present.
A place to hide was always here in my heart
but I find you, and hide from you, playing hide & seek
where you need not ever go seeking.
if you’re scared like me, you can hide in me
you don’t need to search all over for me, ’cause I’m right here.
I’m ready when you are, ’cause, I’m playing hide & seek in your heart
I need to see you, I need to go see you immediately
I need to hurry, and tell you what I said once more.